free? or trapped forever

Shadow tried to save us. sorry but i'm not able to deal with the survival and writing its just too hard.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
They shot shadow and threw him in a cell right next to us and i can hear him moaning in agony every night.
I try to console him with my voice and reading him all of the things that I've written about him. I show him the pictures daily. I show him what I want him to do but he says that without his strength there's nothing he can do.
Oh what am i supposed to tell him when hope dissapears into the abyss of despair daily.
I'm running out of opemistic encouragments to give him.
Ugh I wish that we weren't in this situation! X(
I just want to make him feel as if he was worth something again!
He acts as if he's worth nothing and that he has no purpose.
sometimes i feel as if he just doesn't want to live anymore.

Shadow today stole a diamond. Again we're hostages trying to figure a way out. Though I wonder if I attach my Grapling hook to the flame thrower if I could some how create a fire lassoe... hm

found out what happened

it turns out that I was in a trance well shadow woke me from it and we were trapped by the people who kidnapped my parents. they're forcing shadow to rob for them or they'll kill me and my family so he's protecting us. I can't believe I'm saying this but shadow has always been there for me he's like a brother to me and ever since I've woken up he's been sneaking me some of my Gadgets we're trying to escape but it's not working. they keep catching us and we get punished with starvation. Today he snuck me mycell today I'm gonna call the police as soon as we escape for real.
- Love
Maria <3